What drives you to your knees before God? I’m not talking about those times where you find a great chair to sit in, grab your Bible for quiet reading and reflection and begin your prayer time with thanksgiving, praise and worship. I’m talking about when you fly to your knees and the only words that form on your lips are “Oh, God, help me.” For me, those times might include:
* Bad news–like the night my husband arrived unexpectedly at my office. While always glad to see him, I searched his face trying to figure out why he was there. There was no smile and he said, “I need you to brace yourself, Carol.” There was a pause while my world began to spin and my knees threatened to buckle. He reached out for me and said, “Jason has been in an accident and it doesn’t look good.” There were no words just a desperate mom flying unannounced into the throne room. “Oh, my God, have mercy!”
* Illness–when the doctors say they don’t have an answer, I fall on my knees before The Healer–my Jehovah Rapha.
* Financial disaster–job loss, financial crisis–“Oh, Abba Father (daddy), help!”
* Relationship turmoil–Oh, yes, I’ve worn out a few kneepads for this reason alone. “Oh, God, do you still love me?”
* Lies and turmoil seem to swirl about you. You don’t know where it’s coming from or what to do about it. The Deceiver has declared it a game day and he is kicking you up and down the field. You want to run under His wings that He might cover you.
* The doctors tell you to call in the family. God’s will doesn’t appear to align with yours and your emotions crumble as you try to find a way to understand and accept His sovereignty.
* Sudden peril–your life hangs in the balances.
* When I don’t know which way to turn–where to go next.
Scripture has been my only source for comfort in these times for there were men and women in the Bible who went through these types of circumstances. And through it all, we see God’s faithfulness. And I cling to that thread. Throughout my life, He has never failed me yet and so my thread has become a strong cord. It’s all I have in these times. For example:
* Bad news–The father who had gone to Jesus to seek His help with his child’s illness, but receives the message from his servants that there is no need to bother the Master because his child has died. Yet the Master steps in and heals and raises her.
* Illness–The woman who reached out to touch the hem of his garment. He was her last hope. She was so desperate that she couldn’t even face him or find words to plead for her healing–she could only reach out to touch the hem of His garment–and she was made whole.
* Financial disaster–Oh, poor Job. I don’t think it could get any worse, yet from his lips come profound trust that I’ve clung to on more than one occasion, “Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him.” And God stepped in and set everything right.
* Relationship turmoil–David had his share. Yet he was faithful and honorable. Even though he had the chance to slay King Saul who was trying to kill him, he placed his relationship and ultimate throne/position in God’s hands. And God honored him.
* Lies and turmoil–Esther and her Uncle Mordecai certainly walked through just such a storm. Oh the lies spun by Hamen–can’t you see him gloating as he weaves his web of deceit and lays his traps for Mordecai. Oh, my God was faithful to turn it all around, and Hamen hung on the gallows he had prepared for Mordecai.
* The doctors tell you to call in the family. Mary and Martha experienced this type of grief. Jesus was called and came to be with them and He wept. He was moved by their grief. He’s moved by our suffering and the impact that death has on our hearts. Jesus stepped in and resurrected Lazarus, his last recorded miracle. I feel that it was His compassion over our grief, suffered at the hands of death, that paved the way to Calvary. He chose to walk that road for the glory that was set before Him–His vision of us all gathered together around His throne. So He chose to lay down His life for His friends (us–He calls us friend) to take away our sins and conquer death, hell and the grave once and for all–for us all.
* Sudden peril–While it could be argued that Daniel was also a victim of lies and turmoil, there’s no doubt that when he landed in that den of lions, He and the Lord had a very dramatic conversation. There was no time for flowery words, it was bound to sound something like, “God, NOW would be a good time for you to show up.” And He closed the mouths of the lions.
* When I don’t know which way to turn–where to go next. God told Abraham to to take his family to a place He would show him. So he packed up and left–following God. Later God told him to take his son, Isaac, up to the mountain and offer him as a sacrifice. Abraham didn’t understand. He couldn’t see any way out and was unsure where God was going to take him or what He was going to require of Him. But he took the steps put before Him trusting God that He would lead and direct. And God provided a lamb.
These stories and passages (and many others) have assured me I’m not the only one who has walked this way of desperation. They also provide me with proof positive that my God hears, knows, understands and will act on my behalf. So I run into my strong tower, His mighty name(s), and ascend the stairs through prayer, where I look out on the battlefield of my life and watch Him fight for me. I feel His reassurance that He is with me and that He is in charge. And in the midst of my storm, there is faith in the One who is Faithful. So I find myself in a unique position–desperate yet at peace.
No matter what you are facing, never hesitate to run to Him in your desperation–His arms are open wide and He is anxious to hear and deliver you.